(prěg'nən-sē)

As of right now I have one more week to go until I reach my third trimester. I made 23 weeks this past wednesday. This week has been very jittery because it is the same week that Kaleiikaika graced us with his presence and returned to his eternal home. Pregnancy has its ways of putting your emotions on a crazy roller coaster. My mood swings are so irritating because I can be so happy and bubbly and the next grumpy and moody all in the same hour. And then to worry about the child in me and hoping and praying that everything is going great but to also have this other concious tell me all the time that maybe something is wrong. In the beginning of this pregnancy I had full faith that everything is going to be just fine and that baby will be healthy. But being that we are in that "scary time frame" I'm just back and forth with my worried feelings. My prime philosophy is whatever happens happens and that everything happens for a reason. Don't take this as an "I don't care" kind of a statement but this is seriously something I have learned when we had Kaleiikaika. Everything made so much more sense afterwards and I learned that Kaleiikaika helped us by giving us something to fight for, something to look forward to, and a place where we need to be able to go one day so that we can see him again. Kaleiikaika needed us just as much as we needed him. He came for a short ten minutes and left all for the purpose of gaining a body here on earth and without us he would not have had the chance. For him I am so grateful for his example and inspiration. With this second pregnancy I hope my Kaleiikaika can be the light and inspiration in getting us threw this.

Here's to you my beautiful son!