Being a mother is the greatest blessing on earth! You are responsible for this tiny precious life and little do they know they bring more joy to life than any other innocent thing can bring. I love being Kahula's mommy and taking care of her and watching her grow. She brings so much happiness and laughter to my life. She teaches me new things and makes me wanna strive to be a better example for her. I love her there is no doubt about it. Even though I feel like I am 24 or something just because I am taking on the role of motherhood and living on my own with my husband and having my own family and being the stay at home mom who cleans, watches the baby, and makes sure that the house is in order I wish I could just have some play time for myself. Not in a way that I regret my whole lifestyle I love my husband, my daughter and my little family I really do. But quite frankly I feel like the girl who got pregnant early and now has to stay home and watch the baby while everyone else gets to go play. I know that's what you sign up for when you decide to enter "the business" but, when this feeling hits you, it pretty much punches you in the face followed by the words "I told you". I feel guilty for admitting this like I'm suppose to just keep it to myself as if its like a whole paragraph of swear words. This does not interfere with the way I feel about my daughter, husband, or family all together. I sometimes wish I could just have a little me time and actually enjoy myself without feeling guilty about it. But I traded that all a long time ago way before I even got pregnant with my little youngens. Anyway, that's my vent session of the life of a mommy. (A young one at least)
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